Found Out My Underage Explicit Photos And Videos Are Being Sold And Distributed Over Discord

Location: Canada

Hello all, basically; title. I’m at a loss for what to do, and I have nobody in real life to talk to about this since it’s something I’m very ashamed about.

Okay, backstory, I(18F) got mixed up with the wrong crowd when I was 15 on Discord. These people I made friends with influenced me heavily on sexually explicit things a 15 year old had no business with, like onlyfans, selling nudes, etc. Granted, they didn’t know I was underage, since dumb lil old me thought it was sooo cool for me to pretend I was 18 on Discord servers (this is why I blame myself and am very ashamed about this whole thing since I am essentially the one who brought it upon myself). These “friends” desensitized me on everything that has to do with sex work, like doing cam shows, sending explicit videos and pics for money, and so on. And as a very young impressionable and naive girl, I was easily influenced by these people and I thought it was an easy and “cool” thing to do for money.

A random guy dmed me on Discord one day, saying that he wanted to be a sugar daddy and buy my nudes and spoil me. He sent a screenshot of his bank statements showing that he sent a girl hundreds of dollars multiple times. He offered me hundreds of dollars for my nudes and I asked my Discord friends for advice if I should do it or not, and they encouraged me to go for it. I ended up falling for it and sending him explicit photos of me. I sent him my Paypal link and everything. However, every time it’s time for him to pay me after I sent him my videos, nothing would ever go through on my Paypal. He would always have some excuse like “oh, they must have shut down my card, I have to go to the bank.” And being a stupid dumb kid, I believed him every time and just patiently waited for his payment. Also, I made a separate Paypal account that didn’t expose my real name at all, but he said “maybe the payments aren’t going through since you’re on a burner Paypal account and they couldn’t verify your identity, maybe you should try your actual one.” And so, I ended up falling for it and sending him my Paypal with my actual name one it (stupid, stupid me). After around the 4th time this happened, I started realizing that this guy is definitely just fucking with me and that I had just royally screwed myself over. I blocked him on everything and just prayed to God that nothing would come of it. I also got so scared and left my Discord friends’ server and just made a new account entirely, wanting to never be involved in that ever again.

A week later, I got a follow on my instagram account from a user called “[my name]’s nudes” and their bio had “dm me for [my name]’s nudes.” He looked through my following list and just followed every single one of my friends with that username, and I had so many of my irl friends alarming me about this guy and what he was doing. A lot of my friends defended me and was exchanging dms with him saying he’s lying about having nudes for no reason about a girl who is literally in 10th grade. Because my friends said he was lying, he sent them all the explicit pics and videos I sent him to prove he had them, even after he found out I was only 15. He told all of my friends that if I wanted him to stop, I would have to talk to him myself. I talked to him and I said that I was literally 15 and underage and he is spreading child pornography and just blocked him everywhere again, and told my friends to do the same thing.

This was genuinely so traumatizing, I went to the police to try and get this man arrested but because his Discord account and email he gave me were all new burner accounts, they ended up not finding out who this guy is.

Then, 3 years later (now), I got an Instagram dm from a stranger telling me that there is someone on Discord spreading my nudes and selling it. I was so skeptical and still am because what if this was just another one of this guy’s tricks. He told me he bought my pics and videos from someone selling them on Discord. He bought my Instagram account name from the guy selling it because he found the videos “hot”and wanted to know who I was. I told him I was 15 when in those videos and that guy is genuinely distributing child pornography and he suddenly backtracked and was like “oh shit wtf I’ll delete them rn.” He sent me the sellers Discord username to “help me.” I asked him to send me a screenshot of his messages with that guy so I know it’s actually not him, and he did. The screenshot showed them negotiating and my photos and videos being sent over Discord chat and the seller claiming that I was their ex gf.

I still have no clue whether or not I should trust this guy, but I genuinely have no idea what to do about all of this. Telling the police didn’t work 3 years ago and now I don’t have a clue how to stop this disgusting man and get him in for spreading child pornography. Any help at all is appreciated.

TLDR: 3 years ago, I sold my nudes when I was 15 over Discord, got my nudes leaked by the guy I sent them to and the police were unable to do anything about it since every account they used online was a burner. Now, I find out that they are still spreading and selling it even after knowing I was underage in those videos.