Excluded From My Fathers Funerel Arangements Im 1st Of Kin

Location: Massachusetts, USA

like post says my father passed suddently i was excluded from he funeral arangements violated and shoves aside told day 1 that my aunts were doing everything when i wanted to have a voice like which funeral home and being able to get my fathers cellphone to invite some people ehhe had contact for but i did not.. my aunt and uncle grabed and took his cellphone from the home he just decided that he would be executor day 1 without it belonging to him, i wanted that phoen in order to notify and invite many people who knew my father , including a woman he had dated for some years, a guy i helped him move some furnature with that was a feriend of his.. and some others..

these people who had no legal right stole this from me and violated me and when i spoke up i was shuneed and ignored how to i press charges how to relif myself of the burden of revenge thru the legal system?

i tryed calling many layers but i am not really able to seperate what to say from how upset and hurt i am by the ay these people have treated me violated me and taken from me what was my responsibility to carry out they really put me low

my uncle is trying to make himself into formal thru the legal system but i have objected to that as he is one of the people who have violated me and if he is formal then no one is able to bring forward anything except for him.. he and his wife alogn witht he 2 other aunts and 1 of my brothers are amoung those who shut me out and excluded me

there is no will and i do not wish for him to be in this role that being he is one of those who have done this violations to me

he my uncle in his own words is the only one to aknowlede at same time his words "its not fair" and "legaly they had no right to do that" implying that he knows it is wrong but that he expects wishes or seeks to influence me to just eat it basicly..

i want to clap back i want to stand up for myself i was not allowed to even play 1 song at the funeral until after saying i wanted to over and over for a week and then saying LAWYER.. and i had wanted to give a 5 minute speach about my father but i was not able to do that either..

and they put me so low that i was not even mentaly able to consider other things as well.. such as being asked or being allowed to have input as to who would carry the box.. i was very angry that my uncle and his son were having thier hands there on that box while some of my own siblings were excluded it is all of the violations i do not even know who authorized things to be done in this way i belive it was one of the aunts even though i spoke up many many times at least 20 but much more and was shuned ignored and shut out i believe that there is evidence in some group email chain of them making this decision.. can i supeona for that in order to have hard evidence?

how do i do any of this i am so overwhelmed and when i call a laywer they hang up on me and cut me off i get so mad i had ideation.... so i just removed myself