Alcohol And Divorce

I have been married for five years now and have a total o eight years with my spouse. I hate that I am here doing this but I am at a lose and have never been in this position before. My spouse has had an alcohol problem going on about two years now. It all started about the time they were placed into a family leave status at their job due to some other familial issues. Those issues are still ongoing so this problem only exacerbates the situation. To make a two year long story short, basically once a month my partner will go on binge, leaving me to take care of all of our responsibilities. I have tried to encourage them to get help to no avail, even some friends who have seen this happen have done the same. Well after two years I’m at a breaking point. My emotions and feelings have completely changed or disappeared and I know I’m unhappy. I have tried to tell my partner how I feel now and that we can still work it out if they stop all this but even that is not enough. The last time this happened, beginning of last month I told them that was the last time and I would be seeking a divorce if they did not stop. Now here I am not even in December and it has happened again. Here is also where things take a much darker turn bc now my partner has said they will take their own life than rather be without me. This was said via text bc of course they had called in to work to get drunk. I am not sure what to do. I do not want them to self harm but I feel like the only way to help them is by leaving. I know if I stay this will just go on forever but now I am trapped more than ever by this threat of self harm. I live in the location: Texas where our mental health help is a joke.

What steps should I take to protect myself and my family as well as my partner. Who I still love but they’re just sick and need help. Should any of this be recorded or photographed? I hate that I have to do this but I am truly at a loss and would greatly appreciate any help or advice.

I do have a divorce attorneys information but I have yet to contact them about this.