I Don’t Know What I’m Staying For?

I 33 F and my partner 43M have been together for 7 years, we have a year old together. Our entire relationship has been rocky. He use to own a business that went under. Things were tough. He took his stress out on me. I ended things. Then I found out I was pregnant a month after splitting. He wanted to keep the baby, I didn’t but he insisted on trying to make it work, so I didn’t. This whole time tho we’ve done nothing but fight. I stayed at home with the baby after covid, he worked and supported us. I didn’t ask for this, I had a job in the mmj industry and was happy to work. I found out that he enjoys porn a lot. I got upset about it. He’s cut down supposedly. This past weekend I asked him to show me his hidden photos, and he had like 8 different porn screen recordings along with some videos him and I had made… I asked him to delete them all, he only deleted the porn ones and not the ones with me… I don’t think he needs them if he’s just going to go back to watching porn every time he wants. Right now he was playing some game, which normally he doesn’t so I asked what it was and his character was like some playboy bunny and he said “3 fucking seconds of playing and you’re mad at me already?” It does bother me, he’s gotta find it somehow, I dunno. We have a daughter together, and I just don’t know or feel like he values women. He works, does the bare minimum here at home and I got to school, raise our daughter and my son from a previous relationship who’s 15, and I work part time as a caregiver. I’m trying to get into the Air Force and earn my own way, because I don’t see this panning out. But he doesn’t want things to end and he’ll change temporarily but that’s it, it’s only temporary. Just recently we got a Tesla and at the time I didn’t get much say, it made since, we were fine, he wanted it, and I didn’t want to argue or fight about it. We traded in my Tiguan that was near death, and now I feel like “my car (the Tesla)” isn’t really mine and I feel stuck. Almost like losing my freedom in a way. I don’t know what to do anymore, my parents live about 40 minutes away and always have a spot for me and my kids. I feel bad splitting my family up for something others might see as small or petty. I just don’t know if either of us is truly happy, I do everything at home and he’s just on autopilot or some shit. I don’t think I’m mad, but I am upset and my feelings are hurt and I don’t know when or how I’m going to get over it. Sorry, I’m a little all over the place…